bi to che khaham shod?

tako tanha too rakhtekhabam deraz keshidam
entezar mikesham ta behem telefon bezani
cheghadr montazer boodan sakhte
va az oon badtar in soale ke aya zangh mizani ya na??????????????????
ey kash vase hamishe mitoonestam labkhdeto jeloye cheshmanam dashte basham
vali alan bayad entezare fardayi ro bekesham asrar amiz
fardayi ke emrooz hichi azesh nemidoonam
faghat ye chizo midoonam
bedoone to ashegh nemisham
va eshgh bedone to dighe vasam maani nakhahad dasht
bedoone to gomgashteyi hastam bi ja va makan
bito na dighe arezooyi khaham dasht ta behesh beresam
na angizeyi khaham dasht ke be khateresh az khab bidar sham
vaaaaaay bi to che khaham shod?
ey kash gonahi karde boodam ke liyaghe in hame dard va tanhayi basham!
azet mikham ke bargardi, mano be khoonam ke hamana ghalbe khodete bebari
mano door koni az in shabe siyah va tariki ke toosh hastam
daram esmeto seda mizanam va azet komak mikham
aya sedaye ghalbamo mishnavi?
daram behet migham dighe taghate doorito nadaram
dighe taghate tanhayi ro nadaram
roozhaye zendeghim bito talkh, va har rooz sakhtar mishe
pas ya dastamo begir ya joonamo begir!!!!!!!!
va vase hamishe khalasam kon
be chi dari fekr mikoni?
be chi dari fekr mikoni?
midoonam bi to dighe ashegh nakhaham shod
pas bi to che khaham shod?
bi to che khaham shod?

cheshmaye siyahet

man injam
asheghet
behet barha goftam
hamishe dar kenaret khaham bood
pas to chera oon biroon donbale ye ashegh migardi?
khodet midooni tanha gozashtane man eshtebahe
khodet midooni ke eshghe ma vagheyiye
vaghti cheshmaye siyaheto be khater miavaram
taze motevajeh misham ke chera zendam!!!!
donya ba cheshmaye to kheyli zibatare
cheshmaye to beman mighe:
mibaramet jayi ke hichvaght naboodi!
khoshbakhtiyi ro behet midam ke ta hala tasavoresham nemikardi
va behem mighe ke baraye avalin bar too omram jayezeye nafare avalo mibaram
va tanha kari ke man bayad bokonam ine ke saramo bar gardoonam va be cheshmane siyahet negah konam
aghe fekr mikoni man adame royayiyi hastam
bezar too royahaye khodam ghargh sham
chon man az samime ghalbam va az entehaye vojoodam eteghad daram ke khoshbakhtiye man too cheshmaye siyahe to nahoftast
pas beyne mano khodet divar nakesh
va mano az didane cheshmaye siyahet mahroom nakon
man toro az hezaran kilumetr doortar doost midaram
va midoonam yeroozi in fasele ro khaham shekats
oonghadr behet nazdik misham ke sedaye nafasato toye aghoosham beshnavam
va be cheshmaye siyahe to negah khaham kard!
khodaye man donya too cheshmaye siyahe to ranghe khoshbakhti mide!!!!!!!!!!!

behet ghol midam!!!!!!!!!!!

behet ghol midam
ta zamani ke mah va setareha too asemoonan
behet ghol midam
ta zamanike khorshid too asemoone!!!!!!1
tardido too cheshmat mikhoonam
midoonam too zehnet chi migzare
motmaen bash ke man khodamo mishnasam
midoonam ke mikham tamame salha, mahha, hafteha, roozha, saatha ,daghigheha va saniyaye zendeghit bahet basham
behet ghol midam vaghti ke gerye mikoni
geryehat faghat az khoshhali khahad bood
midoonam adame kameli nistam va eshtebahati khaham dasht
vali behet ghol midam hichvaght ghalbeto nashkoonam
behet ghol midam ta zamanike mah va setareha too asemoonan pishet khaham bood
behet ghol midam ta zamanike khorshid be be soorate zibat mitabe mesle saye kenaret khaham bood
ta zamanike in ghalbam az harakat vaste ba har tapeshesh toro bishtar dooset khahm dasht
behet ghol midam!!!!!!
har chi ro ke to bekhay ro vasat faraham mikonam
ba hamin dastam arezoohato baravorde khaham kard
behtarin khaterate zendeghito vasat dorost mikonam
va oonjayi ke faghat mano to bahamim tamame eshghamo behet sabet khaham kard
to ro doost khaham dasht bishtar az har kase dighe
va ejaze nemidam gham hichvaght too ghalbe mehraboonet rah peyda kone
behet ghol midam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to zibatarini

hamishe too zendeghit raho raveshe khodeto dari
to shabaye zendeghimo noor bakhshidi
ba raho raveshe makhsoose khodet ghalbamo asir kardi
bazzi oghat ehsas mikonam ke zarfiyate in hame khoshbakhti ro nadaram
too in donya hichkas gheyr az man nemidoone ke to che javaheri hasti
vaghti be to negah mikonam ye moojoode binazir mibinam
shakhe goli hasti ke az to zibatar vojood nadare
va to zibayi
be donyaye man zibayi mibakhshi
to be atrafet zibayi mibakhshi
noore ke dar ghalbe to vojood dare zendeghgimo roshan mikone
too cheshmaye to mitoonam tamame eshghi ro ke niyaz daram bebinam
to mano javoontar mikoni
to ba nooret amightarin noghate ghalbamo kashf kardi
pas biya
behet ghol midam hichi az dast nemidi
to ghalbe mano sahab shodi, bedoone inke chizi az dast bedi
va faghat mikham in shanso behem bedi!!!!!!!
ke behet befahmoonam cheghadr dooset daram
midooni ,nemidoonam chejoori varede zendeghim shodi
chejoori ghalbamo sahab shodi
ye chizo midonam
to be man eshghe vagheyi ro neshoon dadi
neshoon dadi ke cheghadr doost dashtan zibast
va man be in dalil migham ke to binaziri
to ba hame fargh dari
to zibatarini
to zibatarini!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

azet sepasgozaram

vasam sakhte jomalati ro begham ke ta hala be zaboon nayavordam
vali inja kasi nist be gheyr az man va to
to dari hasti be sooye zendeghiyi behtar
zendeghiyi ke hamishe azesh farari boodam!
tanha chizi ke alan be zehnam mirese baraye ghadr dani az to aziz ine:
azet sepasgozaram!!
azet sepasgozaram be khatere doost dashtane man
azet sepasgozaram be khatere inke noor cheshmam shodi ke betoonam dobare zendeghiye ziba ro bebinam!
azet sepasgozaram be khatere inke ghesmati az dastam shodi ta be dastnayaftehaye zendeghim beresam!
azet sepasgozaram ke mano doost dashti!!
hichvaght fekr dashtane royayi be in zibayi ro to zehnam tasavor nemikardam!
royaye ba to boodan!!
vaghti cheshmaye zibato tasavor mikonam asemoon ranghe zibatari be khodesh migire!
hata shab ba tamame tarikiyash vasam roshan mishe!
to tanha kasi hasti ke mano be khatere khodam doost dari
va hichvaght ehtiaj nadashtam ke khodamo behet sabet konam
azet sepasgozaram ke mano doost dari
roozi ke zamin khordam to boodi ke mano boland kardi
to oje tanhayiham to boodi ke zange dare khoonamo zadi va mano az tanhayi dar avordi
har ja ke niyaz be komak dashtam to yaro yavaram boodi
are are are in toyi!
daro ghofl kon bikhiyale zendeghiye biroon!!
biya mano too aghooshe khodet begir!!!
bezar ino hezar bar too gooshet zemzeme konam ke az babate hamechi azet sepasgozaram
va az samime ghalb dooset daram
azet sepasgozaram ke mano doost dari
vaghti ke nemitoonestam parvaz konam to be man bal dadi va angizeye parvaz
azet sepasgozaram ke mano doost dari!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

zarfiyate ye shekaste dighe ro nadaram!!!!!!

midoonam che chizi too zehnet migzare!!!!!
to cheshmat dooriye mano to dide mishe!!!
va in bozorghtarin maneye eshghe mano toe!!!!!
vase hamin be man mighi ke hame chi tamoome!!!!!!!
vali in chizi nist ke man mikham!!!!!!!
in rahi nist ke man mikham beram!
man nemikham ke in rabeteye ghashangemoon faghat be chand tamase telefoni khatm she!!!!!!
midooni ke be paye eshgham miyoftam va baraye hefzesh be zanoo dar miyam !!!!!
vali be paye ki biyoftam kasi ke na khodesh injast na delesh!!!!!!
mikhastam az hala bebaade zendeghit male man bashi!!!!!
mikhastam behtarinhaye zendeghima bahat ghesmat konam!!!!!
aya in ensafe???????
hameye behtarinha ro vasat bekham vali be khodam hichi narese!!!!!!!!
midooni ke zarfiyate shekaste dighe ro nadaram!!!!vali alan too amightarin chahe donya oftadam!!!!!!
kasi ham nist ke dastamo begire ya sedamo beshnave va mano az inja darbiyare!!!!!!!
aya sahme man faghat faghat ye ashnayiye maamooliye?
aya gharare ineshgh ba chand ta telefon zadan khatm she?
az hala daram faghat ba khateratet zendeghi mikonam!!!!
nemikham in chand sabahi ro ke bahamimo ba neshoon dadane ehsasatam kharab konam!!!!!
ye modate dighe say mikonam az ehsasatam nagham!!!!!!!!!!
va hamoon chizi basham ke to mikhay bebini!!!!!!!!!!
kheyli oghat ehsas mikonam karam khatast!!!!!!
midoonam midoonam!!!!!!!!!
vali chareyi nadaram !!!!
daram?
azizam az man nakhah behet gholi bedam chon midoni ke nemitoonam anjamesh bedam!!!!!!!!!!
man faghat to ro mikham va mikham az in bebaade zendeghit baman bashi!!!!!!!!!
behtare begamo neshoonet bedam ke cheghadr dooset daram .
khodet midooni aghe az ham joda shim dighe jayi nadarim ke oonja farar konim
!!!!!!!!!!
va ghebteye gozashtamoono khahim khord!!!!!!!!!
pas az man ye bazande nasaz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

chera nemitoonam pishet basham??????

dastanha va romanhaye ziyadi az ghalbhaye shekaste neveshte shode!!!!!!!!!

kheyli sakhte yek ashegh tanha bemoone!!!

sakhte vasash nafas bekeshe!!

sakhte vasash harf bezane!

midoonam in donyaye tarik tamoom mishe va zendeghi roshan khahad gasht!!

khorshido dar doordastha ehsas mikonam!!!

va midoonam be tamame arezoohat khahi resid!

to mikhay be man maaniye tanhayi ro befahmooni!

hamoon ehsasi ke nefrat daram bahash rah beram !

faghat ye chizo be man begoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

chera man nemitoonam pishet basham?

chera mikhay ye kari koni ke ta akhare omram ye gomshode dashte basham??????????

zendeghi migzare!!!

hichvaght tamoom nemishe!!!

hata ghalbe man az sangh ham bood ghatarate mohabatet be moroore zaman tabdilesh karde be khak!!!!!

chera nemighi ke mikhay ta abad baham bemoonim??????????

mighi eshghe ma khatast!!!!!!!!!!!!

vali man ehsas mikonam eshghe ma javdani va moghadase!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dighe roo ehsasatam contoroli nadaram!!!!!!!!!!

aya to ham hamin ehsaso dari?????????

pas chera nemikhay ba man bemooni??????????????

dighe jayi vase farar kardan nadaram!!!!!!!!

ghalb rooh va jesmamo taslimet mikonam!!!!!!!!

az man nakhah ke avaz sham!!!!!!!!

chon hichvaght ehsasate vagheyito nesbat be man neshoon nadadi!!!!!!

yadet bashe gomshodeye dele man toyi!!!!!!!!!

ta roozi ke zendam jaye khalitoehsas khaham kard!!!!!!!!!!!

feghdanet azaram khahad dad!!!!!!!!!!

chera nemitoonam pishet basham??????????

chera................??????????????????????

haminja ta abad montazeret khaham bood!!!!!

har rooz oghyanose tanhayiam vasii tar mishe!
yavash yavash daram divoone misham!
har rooz sedato mishnavam vali bazam darde dooriye toro kam nemikone!
aghe vadeye didare ma hargez bashe!
harjayi ke beri!
har kari ke bokoni!
haminja montazeret khaham bood!
har gheymati ro hazeram vasat pardakht konam!
har sakhtiyi ro hazeram bekhateret tahamol konam!
agharam ghalbam bishtar az in bayad beshkane, be zar beshkane!
haminja montazeret khaham bood!
hamishe be kamtarin chizi ghane boodam!
vali indafe behtarino mikham!
hata shode baraye bedast avordane in behtarin ta akhare omram sabr mikonam!
hazeram har dardi ro bekesham va har ashki ro berizam faghat vase be dast avordane to ke behtarini!
midoonam ke nemitoonam alan kenaret basham!
azizam nemibini ke majnoonet shodam?
nemidoonam akhare in romane asheghane be koja mirese!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
vali aghe akharesh to bashi hich shansi ro az dast nemidam.
har jayi ke beri!
har kari ke bokoni!
haminja montazeret khaham bood?
montazeret khaham moond!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kheyli sakhte! kheyli talkhe! kheyli siyahe!

baade 1 sal oomadi beman mighi ke mikhay tanham bezari.

behem mighi har chand vaght ye zanghi behem mizani!!!!

mighi taghsire man nist ke mikhay tanham bezari!!!!!!

man kari nemitoonam anjam bedam begheyr az inke khandeye talkhi bokonamo vasat arezooye moafaghiyat konam

vali yechizi ro mikham bedoonam

eshghe man koja mikhad bere? eshghe man chi mikhad beshe?va aya vaghean man moghaseram ya na ?

alan ke fekresho mikonam ehsas mikonam ghalbam yakh zade!!!!!

ehsase sarmaye ajibi mikonam dorost mesle inke too sibri basham!!!!!

montazere ye mojezam!!!!!

kheyli talkhe !

kheyli sakhte!

kheyli siyahe!

vaghti ke kasi ro doost dashte bashi vali oon toro nakhad!

modatha too roya zendeghi mikardam!

shaba hamishe khabeto mibinam!

mesle hamishe!

vali to inja nisti!

chareyi nadaram !

majbooram khodamo kenar bekesham!

gheyb shamo dighe hichvaght mano nabini!

vali motmaen bash az saye behet nazdiktar khaham bood!

shayad to ghalbo roohet pishe kase dighast!

vali az ghalbe man kharej nakhahi shod!

kheyli talkhe!

kheyli sakhte!

kheyli siyahe!

vaghti kasi ro doost dashte bashi va oon toro nakhad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

eshgheto ta abad too oghyanose delam negah midaram

eshghe man!
nemibini ke tanham!
chera nemitooni be in asheghet yeshanse dighe bedi????????????
tanha chizi ke azet darkhast mikonam yekami eshghe va yekami mohabat vaghti ke bahamim!
khahesh mikonam mano az zendeghit biroon nakon!!!!!!
na nagoo ke eshghe ma pooch boode!
tanha chizi ke azet mikham yekam eshghe!
ah ey khodaye man midooni ke vase peyda kardanet salha sabr kardam!
che jahayi ro ke vase peyda kardanet nagashtam!
vali hadeaghal be man ejaze bede vaghti ke dari miri narahat basham!
shayad to kasi ro ehtiaj dari ke vaghean kenaret bashe!
pas hadeaghal tazahor nakon!!!!!!
ey kash bal dashtamo par mizadam be sooyat
vali midoonam ke nemitoonam parvaz konam
yekari kardi ke dighe betarsam ehsasatamo behet neshoon bedam
ahh bazam bayad tanha bashamo sabr konam!!!!!!!!!
bazam kare man mishe neshastan too otaghe tarikam va moroore khaterati ke baham dashtim!
bazam yeki ro ke az samime ghalb doost dashtam mikhad tanham bezare va ehtemalan yeki dighe ro peyda kone!
bazam shaba bayad az khastegiye geristanam khabam bebare
vali ye chizo midoonam ke eshghe toro too oghyanose ghalbam ta abad negah midaram
azizam sedaye ghalbamo nemishnavi !!!!!!!!!
dare sedat mikone!!!!!!!!!!
maghe harfasho nemifahmi!!!!!!!!!!!
azet mikhad yebare dighe ehsaset kone
ahhhhhhhh chera man hanooz tanham!!!!!!!!!!!
ye ghalb ashegh daram vali avarasto jayi nadare ke aroom beshe!!!!!!!!!!!!
tanha chizi ke azet darkhast mikonam yekami eshghe hamin!!!!
koja mitoonam yeki mesle toro peyda konam!!!!!!!!!!
az koja motmaen basham aghe yeki dighe ro peyda kardam mesle to mano tanha nazare?!!!!!!!!!!
daram tanha misham yeki komakam kone komakam kone
bazam tanha misham
tanha
tanha
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bazam bayad too otagham ..........................................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!1