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Monday, August 20, 2007

khodaya chera?



chera?

khodaya ba toam!

chera zendeghiya man bayad injoori bashe!

dorost lahzeyi ke fekr mikardam hamechiz bar vefghe moradame zadi hame chizo daghoon kardi!

chera?

fekr nemikonam oonghadr bandeye badi vasat boode basham ke layeghe inhame dard basham

chera hamishe bayad ghamkhare hame bashamo vali vaghti yeki ro mikham ke mano deldari bede kasi atrafam nabashe!

nemidoonam nemidoonam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

az oon roozi ke madar bozorghamo azem gerefti shoroo shod!

yadet miyad oonrooz hata be bozorghtaram deldari midadam

bache boodam 12 salam bood

yadete delam chejoori gerefte bood

oon vaghta hamishe vaght ghami dashtam too aghooshe madar bozorgam gerye mikardam

vali dighe madar bozorgham nabood va pishe to bood

yadete oon rooz az hameye famil khodamo door kardam raftam jayi ke hichkas mano nabine takotanha gerye kardam!

az oon rooz tanhayihaye zendeghim shoroo shod

nemidoonam in chiye daroone man

ghoroore ?

khariyate?

chera nemitoonam be kasi etminan konam va darde delamo behesh begham?

nemidoonam?

shayad mitarsam az inke oon taraf narahat she

pishe khodam migham taraf che gonahi karde ke bayad be khatere man narahat she!

baraye avalin bar too zendeghim fekr kardam yeki ro peyda kardam ke mitoonam hameye ghamhaye zendeghimo behesh begham

avalin bar be inkasi ke hastam eftekhar kardam

vali bazam nashod

nazashti pisham bemoone

nemidoonam! ina hamash azmayeshe?

man cheghadr bayad azmayesh pas bedam?

dighe basame!

az inke hastam nefrat daram

mikham avaz sham

mikham be fekre khodam basham

ta key fekre baghiye basham?

yaani inhame mardom ke khoshbakhtan hame inghadr sakhti keshidan?

na fekr nakonam

khastam pishet biyam

vali nazashti

sakhtiye jahanameto hazer bodam tahamol konam

vali in deltaghiye laanati ro na!

vali bazam nazashti

khodaya dighe az man chi mikhay?

biya joonamo azem begir

midooni ke hazeram va vasam arzeshei nadare

pedar va madare khoobi behem dadi

az bacheghi taaminam kardan

shayadam khoob tarbiyatam karde bashan

midoonam baram kam nazashtan

vali ye karo hichvaght nakardan

hichvaght be harfe dele man goosh nadadan

hichvaght

khob baghiye ro ham ke khodet midooni

dighe kasi nist

midooni ke az too daghoonam!

akharin delkhoshimam azem gerefti!

khob mesle inke taghdir hamine man hamishe bayad tanha basham!

faghat be man begoo chera?





derakhte tanha va parastooye mohajer!


roozi roozegari derakhte piri bood
door az derakhtane dighe jayi ke hichi roshd nemikard zendeghi mkard
tanhayi behtarin dooste oo bood va khabidan tanha karesh
derakhtaye jangal hamishe maskharash mikardan
oono moojodi zesht va bi khasiyat khetab mikardan
hamishe tahe delesh az in vaaziyat narahat bood vali hich vaght kham be abroo nemiyavord ta kasi az hale delesh ba khabar beshe
ye rooz to zemestoone sard derakht ba sedaye shelike golooleyi az khab bidar shod
be sakhti cheshmasho baz kard
negahi be atraf andakht
saghaye shekarchi ro did ke daran be soraat be tarafe oon miyan
nagahan sedaye naleyi ro az too barfa shenid
parastooye koochak va zibayi dasht too barfa az dard be khodesh mipichid
salha bood oon tane khoshkidash tekoon nakhorde bood
be sakhti yeki az shakhehaye khodesho be samte parastoo bord
va dorost hamoon lahze ke sagha residan parastoo ro boland kard va dar amn tarin jaye khodesh oono penhan kard
sagh va shekarchi pas az inke az peyda kardan parastoo na omid shodan oonja ro tark kardan
derakht baad az raftane sagh va shekarchi negahi be parastooye ziba andakht ke bijan dar aghooshe oo bood
sarmaye sakht dasht parastoo ro azar midad
derakht oono dar aghooshesh feshord ta parastoo ehsase sarma nakone
chandin mah gozasht ta parastoo halesh khoob shod
derakht kole zemestoono nakhabide bood vali baraye avalin bar too zendeghish shadi ro ehasas mikard
pishe derakhtaye janghali poz midad az inke parastooyi be in zibayi roo shakhehaye oon bazi mikone
too in chand mah derakht vase hemayat az parastoo majboor shode bood ba behtarin doostash
lashkhor va rasoo daava kone chon oona mikhastan parastoo ro bokhoran
vali derakht na tanha narahat nabood az inke ba doostash ghate rabete karde bood balke kheyli ham too delesh ehsase ghoroor mikard
drakht dar kenare parastooo har rooz ehsase javooni mikard
dighe az tanhayi khabari nabood
derakhtaye janghal ke oono dashtan az door mididan hala be oon hasoodi mikardan
chon oon ba ye parastooye ziba hamneshin bood
mahha shadi va khoshbakhtiye derakht edame dasht
ta dobare zemestoon shod va parastoo koochooloo avalin daste parastyoohaye mohajeroke dashtan az oonja migzashtan did
ehsase tanhayi kard
be derakht goft ke mikhad oono tark kone
hanooz fasle zemestoon nashode derakht yakh zad
bavaresh nemishod dorane khoshish be in zoodi payan yafte bashe
kheyli asabani shod vali vaghti geryehaye parastoo ro did natoonest harfi bezane!
parastoo tanha doostesh bood chetor mitoonest oono narahat bebine va delesho beshkane
pas oono dar aghoosh keshid
behesh deldari dad
goft boro
boro ta dar kenare hamnoat khoshbakht shi
parastoo bal keshido raft
va derakht oono ba labkhandi badraghe kard
lab khandi ke toosh hezaran sal ghamo andoohe tanhayi dide mishod
labkhandi talkh ke az deli shekate miyomad
derakht ye bare dighe tanha shode bood
lashkhor va rasoo oono sarzanesh mikardan
derakhtaye janghal be oo mikhandidan va maskharash mikardanindafe dighe derakht nemitoonest jeloye ashkasho begire
derakhat dast be asemoon bord va az khoda khast
ya parastooye ziba ro bargardoone
ya hizom shekan biyado tishe be risheye oon bezane
chon dighe derakht taghate tanhayiyo nadasht.............................

Sunday, August 19, 2007

bavaram kon!!!




nemidoonam !
mano bavar dari?
hame chiz bayid va gheyre momken be nazar mirese
vali baraye man gheyre momken vojood nadare!
man shayad ye bazande basham vali to mesle khorshide tabnak midarakhshi!
be man begoo chera nemitoonam too donyaye to basham?
yadet bashe!
man hichvaght dast az talash bar nakhaham dasht!
ta roozi ke male man beshi!
shode ta abad sabr konam va sakhti bekesham pat va mistam!
midooni baraye chi?
baraye inke ghalbe man too dastaye toe!
chera ino nemifahmi?
chetor mitoonam bikhiyalet besham vaghti ke ghalbam too dastate?
inam midoonam azizam dighe rahe baz gashti nadaram!
in ye khiyaboone ye tarafst ke be to aziztarinam khatm mishe!
bezar mardom began divoonam!
bezar beghan ke aghlam nemirese!
bezar be man bekhandan!
hame mighan eshghaye emroozi sathi va zoodgozare!
vali ino motmaenam eshghi ke beyne mano toe moghadase!
too hich ketabi ya romani ya hata filmi nayoomade ke be dast avordan ye eshgh, sade va rahat bashe!
midoonam baraye be dast avordane to (behtarin)sakhtiha bayad bekesham
va baraye hame chiz amade hastam
hata aghe majboor sham ta akharin nafas vase be dast avordanet bejangham!
midoonam in shabe tarik tamoom mishe va sobhe del angiz ba noore cheshmaye to aghaz khahad gasht!
bavaram kon!
man hichvaght dast az talash kardan bar nakhaham dasht ta zamani ke male man beshi.........................











Saturday, August 18, 2007

royaye man!!!!!!!!!!!!


ye zamani ke motmaen basham vagheyiyate
ye zamani ke vaghean betoonam ehsasesh konam royaye mane!
ye zanghe telefon
ye sedaye aramesh bakhsh oonvare gooshi royaye mane!
ye jaye ziba va sabz zire nam name baroon hamrahe eshghet ke az samime ghalb doosesh dari va oonam to ro doost dashte bashe dast dar dast dastane ham lab dar labane ham , torike betoonam hameye vojoodesho ehsas konam royaye mane!
to chi mibini?
to chi midooni?
man chi khaham shod?
man che khaham kard?
faghat tasmimi nagir ke baadan pashimoon shi!
be oon sedayi ke mishnavi goosh bede
oon sedayiye ke ta zendeyi too gooshet khahad khoond!
to chi mikhay bokoni?
to chi mikhay begi?
faghat tasmimi nagir ke baadan pashimoon shi!
ye vaghti royaye mane,faghat yek bar dar tamame zendeghim!
ye vaghti ke motmaenam dobare nakhahad oomad!
ye asemoon abi bedoone hata tikeyi abr!
ye negahe asheghane be eshgham az tahe del
midoonam oonam mitoone hamitor be man negah kone,royaye mane!
ye shansi ke betoonam bargardam be zamani ke hame chiz az oonja shoroo shod royaye mane!
ye shansi ke betoonam tamame in ghataate motalashi shodeye zendeghimo beham bechasboonam royaye mane!
ye goosheyi ke betoonam vagheyiyate residam be royahamo lams konam va bavar konam ,royaye mane!
ye gooshe ke ghalbe shekastam tarmim peyda kone ba dastane mehrabunet royaye mane!

ey kash mishod emshab too aghooshe to bemiram


daram be chizi fekr mikonam ke dashtanesh mahale
delshekastehaye ziyadi ro mishnakhtam vali hichvaht fekr nemikardam ke khodam ye rooz yeki az oona besham
va hich rahiham nadaram ke az in vagheyiyat farar konam
khodaya chera mano be in zendeghi avordi?
khodet midoonesti ke liyaghatesho nadaram.
ah ey kash mishod emshab too aghooshe to bemiram
ino bishtar az harchize dighe alan mikham
ey kash hichvaght nemirafti!!!!!!
kasi nist be man beghe chetori az in ehsase daroonam khalas besham?
say mikonam farar konam vali bazam in ehsas soragham miyad va tamame naghshehamo naghshe bar ab mikone
mane gomshode ke bedaste peyda shode boodam dobare gomshodam va indafe nemidoonam che kasi ro sarzanesh konam
hata nemidoonam in vasat moghaser kiye
vali in vasat dele mane ke dare par par mishe
yade eshghe to hamishe mano be roya foroo mibare shaydam bayad ta akharin lahzeye zendeghim ba in roya zendeghi konam!!!!!!!!
ey kash mishod emshab too aghooshe to bemiram va to hich harfi az raftan nemizadi va mizashti hamoonja bemiram
vali vaghti bekhodam miyam mibinam ke hamash yek royast va dast nayaftaniye ,dastamo be sar mizaram va faryad mizanam!!!!!!!
faryad mizanam va nale mikonam az inke chera eshtebah kardam?
ey kash mishod emshab too aghooshe to bemiram va az in darde laanati baraye hamishe khalas sham!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, August 17, 2007

mesle abre bahari zood gozar bood


mesle abre bahari zood gozar bood!
fekr mikardam oomade payani bashe bar shabhaye tarikam
vali na, baad az raftanesh roozhaye manam tire va tar shod!
oon be man zibayiye shabhaye mahtabi ro neshoon dad
vali zendeghiye mano ba noori daghtar az noore khorshid soozoond!
oon ghalbe mano ba khodesh bord va shekast
oon nemidoone ka ba man chi kar karde
be soorate man negah kon
tanhayi ro too cheshmam bekhoon
hichvaght hichkas be andazeye to be man nazdik naboode va nakhahad shod
alan ke inaro minevisam joraat nadarm too cheshat negah konam
vali to dari mano tanha mizari!!!!!!!!!!
midoonam shayad hemaghat bashe ke fekr konam bar khahad gasht chon mesle abre bahari zood gozar bood!!!
be ayne minegaram
va tanha chizi ke mibinam ye javoone tanhast ke faghat too zendeghish ye roya dare!!!!!!!!
va man bazam khodamo khar mikonam va bekhodam migham oon dast az in bazi bar khahad dasht
chon midoonam zendeghi bi oon mano divoone khahad karad!
sakhtiye bito boodano too sooratam bebin
to tanha kasi hasti ke mitooni mano nejat bedi
nazar payane in ghese ba delshekasteghi tamoom she
nazar ye omr too in daryaye bozorgh va toofani tako tanha va bihadaf shena konam
ba man bemoon................................................................