chera?
khodaya ba toam!
chera zendeghiya man bayad injoori bashe!
dorost lahzeyi ke fekr mikardam hamechiz bar vefghe moradame zadi hame chizo daghoon kardi!
chera?
fekr nemikonam oonghadr bandeye badi vasat boode basham ke layeghe inhame dard basham
chera hamishe bayad ghamkhare hame bashamo vali vaghti yeki ro mikham ke mano deldari bede kasi atrafam nabashe!
nemidoonam nemidoonam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
az oon roozi ke madar bozorghamo azem gerefti shoroo shod!
yadet miyad oonrooz hata be bozorghtaram deldari midadam
bache boodam 12 salam bood
yadete delam chejoori gerefte bood
oon vaghta hamishe vaght ghami dashtam too aghooshe madar bozorgam gerye mikardam
vali dighe madar bozorgham nabood va pishe to bood
yadete oon rooz az hameye famil khodamo door kardam raftam jayi ke hichkas mano nabine takotanha gerye kardam!
az oon rooz tanhayihaye zendeghim shoroo shod
nemidoonam in chiye daroone man
ghoroore ?
khariyate?
chera nemitoonam be kasi etminan konam va darde delamo behesh begham?
nemidoonam?
shayad mitarsam az inke oon taraf narahat she
pishe khodam migham taraf che gonahi karde ke bayad be khatere man narahat she!
baraye avalin bar too zendeghim fekr kardam yeki ro peyda kardam ke mitoonam hameye ghamhaye zendeghimo behesh begham
avalin bar be inkasi ke hastam eftekhar kardam
vali bazam nashod
nazashti pisham bemoone
nemidoonam! ina hamash azmayeshe?
man cheghadr bayad azmayesh pas bedam?
dighe basame!
az inke hastam nefrat daram
mikham avaz sham
mikham be fekre khodam basham
ta key fekre baghiye basham?
yaani inhame mardom ke khoshbakhtan hame inghadr sakhti keshidan?
na fekr nakonam
khastam pishet biyam
vali nazashti
sakhtiye jahanameto hazer bodam tahamol konam
vali in deltaghiye laanati ro na!
vali bazam nazashti
khodaya dighe az man chi mikhay?
biya joonamo azem begir
midooni ke hazeram va vasam arzeshei nadare
pedar va madare khoobi behem dadi
az bacheghi taaminam kardan
shayadam khoob tarbiyatam karde bashan
midoonam baram kam nazashtan
vali ye karo hichvaght nakardan
hichvaght be harfe dele man goosh nadadan
hichvaght
khob baghiye ro ham ke khodet midooni
dighe kasi nist
midooni ke az too daghoonam!
akharin delkhoshimam azem gerefti!
khob mesle inke taghdir hamine man hamishe bayad tanha basham!
faghat be man begoo chera?
