khodaya chera?

chera?

khodaya ba toam!

chera zendeghiya man bayad injoori bashe!

dorost lahzeyi ke fekr mikardam hamechiz bar vefghe moradame zadi hame chizo daghoon kardi!

chera?

fekr nemikonam oonghadr bandeye badi vasat boode basham ke layeghe inhame dard basham

chera hamishe bayad ghamkhare hame bashamo vali vaghti yeki ro mikham ke mano deldari bede kasi atrafam nabashe!

nemidoonam nemidoonam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

az oon roozi ke madar bozorghamo azem gerefti shoroo shod!

yadet miyad oonrooz hata be bozorghtaram deldari midadam

bache boodam 12 salam bood

yadete delam chejoori gerefte bood

oon vaghta hamishe vaght ghami dashtam too aghooshe madar bozorgam gerye mikardam

vali dighe madar bozorgham nabood va pishe to bood

yadete oon rooz az hameye famil khodamo door kardam raftam jayi ke hichkas mano nabine takotanha gerye kardam!

az oon rooz tanhayihaye zendeghim shoroo shod

nemidoonam in chiye daroone man

ghoroore ?

khariyate?

chera nemitoonam be kasi etminan konam va darde delamo behesh begham?

nemidoonam?

shayad mitarsam az inke oon taraf narahat she

pishe khodam migham taraf che gonahi karde ke bayad be khatere man narahat she!

baraye avalin bar too zendeghim fekr kardam yeki ro peyda kardam ke mitoonam hameye ghamhaye zendeghimo behesh begham

avalin bar be inkasi ke hastam eftekhar kardam

vali bazam nashod

nazashti pisham bemoone

nemidoonam! ina hamash azmayeshe?

man cheghadr bayad azmayesh pas bedam?

dighe basame!

az inke hastam nefrat daram

mikham avaz sham

mikham be fekre khodam basham

ta key fekre baghiye basham?

yaani inhame mardom ke khoshbakhtan hame inghadr sakhti keshidan?

na fekr nakonam

khastam pishet biyam

vali nazashti

sakhtiye jahanameto hazer bodam tahamol konam

vali in deltaghiye laanati ro na!

vali bazam nazashti

khodaya dighe az man chi mikhay?

biya joonamo azem begir

midooni ke hazeram va vasam arzeshei nadare

pedar va madare khoobi behem dadi

az bacheghi taaminam kardan

shayadam khoob tarbiyatam karde bashan

midoonam baram kam nazashtan

vali ye karo hichvaght nakardan

hichvaght be harfe dele man goosh nadadan

hichvaght

khob baghiye ro ham ke khodet midooni

dighe kasi nist

midooni ke az too daghoonam!

akharin delkhoshimam azem gerefti!

khob mesle inke taghdir hamine man hamishe bayad tanha basham!

faghat be man begoo chera?

derakhte tanha va parastooye mohajer!

roozi roozegari derakhte piri bood

door az derakhtane dighe jayi ke hichi roshd nemikard zendeghi mkard

tanhayi behtarin dooste oo bood va khabidan tanha karesh

derakhtaye jangal hamishe maskharash mikardan

oono moojodi zesht va bi khasiyat khetab mikardan

hamishe tahe delesh az in vaaziyat narahat bood vali hich vaght kham be abroo nemiyavord ta kasi az hale delesh ba khabar beshe

ye rooz to zemestoone sard derakht ba sedaye shelike golooleyi az khab bidar shod

be sakhti cheshmasho baz kard

negahi be atraf andakht

saghaye shekarchi ro did ke daran be soraat be tarafe oon miyan

nagahan sedaye naleyi ro az too barfa shenid

parastooye koochak va zibayi dasht too barfa az dard be khodesh mipichid

salha bood oon tane khoshkidash tekoon nakhorde bood

be sakhti yeki az shakhehaye khodesho be samte parastoo bord

va dorost hamoon lahze ke sagha residan parastoo ro boland kard va dar amn tarin jaye khodesh oono penhan kard

sagh va shekarchi pas az inke az peyda kardan parastoo na omid shodan oonja ro tark kardan

derakht baad az raftane sagh va shekarchi negahi be parastooye ziba andakht ke bijan dar aghooshe oo bood

sarmaye sakht dasht parastoo ro azar midad

derakht oono dar aghooshesh feshord ta parastoo ehsase sarma nakone

chandin mah gozasht ta parastoo halesh khoob shod

derakht kole zemestoono nakhabide bood vali baraye avalin bar too zendeghish shadi ro ehasas mikard

pishe derakhtaye janghali poz midad az inke parastooyi be in zibayi roo shakhehaye oon bazi mikone

too in chand mah derakht vase hemayat az parastoo majboor shode bood ba behtarin doostash

lashkhor va rasoo daava kone chon oona mikhastan parastoo ro bokhoran

vali derakht na tanha narahat nabood az inke ba doostash ghate rabete karde bood balke kheyli ham too delesh ehsase ghoroor mikard

drakht dar kenare parastooo har rooz ehsase javooni mikard

dighe az tanhayi khabari nabood

derakhtaye janghal ke oono dashtan az door mididan hala be oon hasoodi mikardan

chon oon ba ye parastooye ziba hamneshin bood

mahha shadi va khoshbakhtiye derakht edame dasht

ta dobare zemestoon shod va parastoo koochooloo avalin daste parastyoohaye mohajeroke dashtan az oonja migzashtan did

ehsase tanhayi kard

be derakht goft ke mikhad oono tark kone

hanooz fasle zemestoon nashode derakht yakh zad

bavaresh nemishod dorane khoshish be in zoodi payan yafte bashe

kheyli asabani shod vali vaghti geryehaye parastoo ro did natoonest harfi bezane!

parastoo tanha doostesh bood chetor mitoonest oono narahat bebine va delesho beshkane

pas oono dar aghoosh keshid

behesh deldari dad

goft boro

boro ta dar kenare hamnoat khoshbakht shi

parastoo bal keshido raft

va derakht oono ba labkhandi badraghe kard

lab khandi ke toosh hezaran sal ghamo andoohe tanhayi dide mishod

labkhandi talkh ke az deli shekate miyomad

derakht ye bare dighe tanha shode bood

lashkhor va rasoo oono sarzanesh mikardan

derakhtaye janghal be oo mikhandidan va maskharash mikardanindafe dighe derakht nemitoonest jeloye ashkasho begire

derakhat dast be asemoon bord va az khoda khast

ya parastooye ziba ro bargardoone

ya hizom shekan biyado tishe be risheye oon bezane

chon dighe derakht taghate tanhayiyo nadasht.............................

bavaram kon!!!

nemidoonam !
mano bavar dari?
hame chiz bayid va gheyre momken be nazar mirese
vali baraye man gheyre momken vojood nadare!
man shayad ye bazande basham vali to mesle khorshide tabnak midarakhshi!
be man begoo chera nemitoonam too donyaye to basham?
yadet bashe!
man hichvaght dast az talash bar nakhaham dasht!
ta roozi ke male man beshi!
shode ta abad sabr konam va sakhti bekesham pat va mistam!
midooni baraye chi?
baraye inke ghalbe man too dastaye toe!
chera ino nemifahmi?
chetor mitoonam bikhiyalet besham vaghti ke ghalbam too dastate?
inam midoonam azizam dighe rahe baz gashti nadaram!
in ye khiyaboone ye tarafst ke be to aziztarinam khatm mishe!
bezar mardom began divoonam!
bezar beghan ke aghlam nemirese!
bezar be man bekhandan!
hame mighan eshghaye emroozi sathi va zoodgozare!
vali ino motmaenam eshghi ke beyne mano toe moghadase!
too hich ketabi ya romani ya hata filmi nayoomade ke be dast avordan ye eshgh, sade va rahat bashe!
midoonam baraye be dast avordane to (behtarin)sakhtiha bayad bekesham
va baraye hame chiz amade hastam
hata aghe majboor sham ta akharin nafas vase be dast avordanet bejangham!
midoonam in shabe tarik tamoom mishe va sobhe del angiz ba noore cheshmaye to aghaz khahad gasht!
bavaram kon!
man hichvaght dast az talash kardan bar nakhaham dasht ta zamani ke male man beshi.........................

royaye man!!!!!!!!!!!!

ye zamani ke motmaen basham vagheyiyate

ye zamani ke vaghean betoonam ehsasesh konam royaye mane!

ye zanghe telefon

ye sedaye aramesh bakhsh oonvare gooshi royaye mane!

ye jaye ziba va sabz zire nam name baroon hamrahe eshghet ke az samime ghalb doosesh dari va oonam to ro doost dashte bashe dast dar dast dastane ham lab dar labane ham , torike betoonam hameye vojoodesho ehsas konam royaye mane!

to chi mibini?

to chi midooni?

man chi khaham shod?

man che khaham kard?

faghat tasmimi nagir ke baadan pashimoon shi!

be oon sedayi ke mishnavi goosh bede

oon sedayiye ke ta zendeyi too gooshet khahad khoond!

to chi mikhay bokoni?

to chi mikhay begi?

faghat tasmimi nagir ke baadan pashimoon shi!

ye vaghti royaye mane,faghat yek bar dar tamame zendeghim!

ye vaghti ke motmaenam dobare nakhahad oomad!

ye asemoon abi bedoone hata tikeyi abr!

ye negahe asheghane be eshgham az tahe del

midoonam oonam mitoone hamitor be man negah kone,royaye mane!

ye shansi ke betoonam bargardam be zamani ke hame chiz az oonja shoroo shod royaye mane!

ye shansi ke betoonam tamame in ghataate motalashi shodeye zendeghimo beham bechasboonam royaye mane!

ye goosheyi ke betoonam vagheyiyate residam be royahamo lams konam va bavar konam ,royaye mane!

ye gooshe ke ghalbe shekastam tarmim peyda kone ba dastane mehrabunet royaye mane!

ey kash mishod emshab too aghooshe to bemiram

daram be chizi fekr mikonam ke dashtanesh mahale

delshekastehaye ziyadi ro mishnakhtam vali hichvaht fekr nemikardam ke khodam ye rooz yeki az oona besham

va hich rahiham nadaram ke az in vagheyiyat farar konam

khodaya chera mano be in zendeghi avordi?

khodet midoonesti ke liyaghatesho nadaram.

ah ey kash mishod emshab too aghooshe to bemiram

ino bishtar az harchize dighe alan mikham

ey kash hichvaght nemirafti!!!!!!

kasi nist be man beghe chetori az in ehsase daroonam khalas besham?

say mikonam farar konam vali bazam in ehsas soragham miyad va tamame naghshehamo naghshe bar ab mikone

mane gomshode ke bedaste peyda shode boodam dobare gomshodam va indafe nemidoonam che kasi ro sarzanesh konam

hata nemidoonam in vasat moghaser kiye

vali in vasat dele mane ke dare par par mishe

yade eshghe to hamishe mano be roya foroo mibare shaydam bayad ta akharin lahzeye zendeghim ba in roya zendeghi konam!!!!!!!!

ey kash mishod emshab too aghooshe to bemiram va to hich harfi az raftan nemizadi va mizashti hamoonja bemiram

vali vaghti bekhodam miyam mibinam ke hamash yek royast va dast nayaftaniye ,dastamo be sar mizaram va faryad mizanam!!!!!!!

faryad mizanam va nale mikonam az inke chera eshtebah kardam?

ey kash mishod emshab too aghooshe to bemiram va az in darde laanati baraye hamishe khalas sham!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mesle abre bahari zood gozar bood

mesle abre bahari zood gozar bood!

fekr mikardam oomade payani bashe bar shabhaye tarikam

vali na, baad az raftanesh roozhaye manam tire va tar shod!

oon be man zibayiye shabhaye mahtabi ro neshoon dad

vali zendeghiye mano ba noori daghtar az noore khorshid soozoond!

oon ghalbe mano ba khodesh bord va shekast

oon nemidoone ka ba man chi kar karde

be soorate man negah kon

tanhayi ro too cheshmam bekhoon

hichvaght hichkas be andazeye to be man nazdik naboode va nakhahad shod

alan ke inaro minevisam joraat nadarm too cheshat negah konam

vali to dari mano tanha mizari!!!!!!!!!!

midoonam shayad hemaghat bashe ke fekr konam bar khahad gasht chon mesle abre bahari zood gozar bood!!!

be ayne minegaram

va tanha chizi ke mibinam ye javoone tanhast ke faghat too zendeghish ye roya dare!!!!!!!!

va man bazam khodamo khar mikonam va bekhodam migham oon dast az in bazi bar khahad dasht

chon midoonam zendeghi bi oon mano divoone khahad karad!

sakhtiye bito boodano too sooratam bebin

to tanha kasi hasti ke mitooni mano nejat bedi

nazar payane in ghese ba delshekasteghi tamoom she

nazar ye omr too in daryaye bozorgh va toofani tako tanha va bihadaf shena konam

ba man bemoon................................................................

bazam tako tanha bayad edame bedam??????

ey kash mitoonesti ashkhayi ro ke vase to rikhte mishe bebini
ey kash mitoonesti bebini ke chegoone ba raftanet ye zendeghi ro az beyn mibari
ey kash mitoonesti sedaye ghalbamo ke vase to mitape ro ye bar dighe beshnavi
harvaght ke cheshmamo mibandam ye ax az oon soorate zibato mibinam va bazam too royaye to froo miram
vali vaghti ke cheshmamo baz mikonam mibinam ke to nisti va baraye hamishe tanham gozashti
va jaye khalit hamishe ehsas khahad shod bedoone inke betoonam kasi ro janeshinet konam
inaro faghat minevisam ke khodamo az tanhayi darbiyaram
midoonam shayad hichvaght in matalebo nakhooni
shayadam vasat hich arzeshi nadashte bashe ke chi nevashtam
vali faghat azet ye soal daram chera mikhay mano ba inhame gham tanha bezari?
toyi ke tanha nejat dahandeye man az ghamo ghosehaye zamoone boodi chera mikhay tanham bezari?
midoonam ke midooni khateratet ta abad too zehne man zende mimoone
va hichvaght nemitoonam jaye khalito por konam
bazam too khiyaboone tariki daram tak va tanha rah miram khiyabooni ke entehash maaloom nist be koja khatm mishe
bavaram nemishe manike hamishe yaro doost delshekasteha boodam va beheshoon komak mikardamo nasihateshoon mikardam, hala sahme khodam az donya tanhayiye va hichkasam nist dastamo begire va komakam kone
hazeram harchi daramo fada konam faghat vase inke roozaye khoshe ba to boodan bargarde
nemidoonam ba in sedayi ke darooname va esmeto seda mikone chi kar konam!!!!
vali man hichvaght harfaye ghashanget va roozaye khoobi ro ke baham dashtim faramoosh nemikonam va ye chizi tahe ghalbam mighe ke toham mano doost dari
be yechiziham ke shadidan eteghad daram ine ke khoda hame ro too in donya joft joft afaride va kasi az tahe ghalb khoshbakht nakhahad shod maghe be jofte asemoonish ke khoda moghadar karde berese
pas man ham sabr khaham kard ta oon niroye daroonet toro beman baz gardoone!!!!!!!!!!!!

biya be zendeghiye man rangh bebakhsh

be setareha negah kon

negah kon bebin ke setareha chegoone baraye to miderakhshan

to har kari ke mikoni mojeb mishi donyaye atrafet zibatar beshe

ye roozi az rahe door be samte to ey fereshteye behshtiye man khaham amad

chon midoonam zendeghi ba to che zibast

midoonam, ghabl az inke be sooye to biyam bayad karhaye ziyadi anjam bedam

bayad khodamo besazam tori ke liyaghate boodane ba fereshteyi mesle to ro dashte basham

vali to har rooz az rooze ghablet zibatar va jazabtar mishi nemidoonam mitoonam layeghe hamneshini ba to basham ya na????????

to donyaye atrafeto az dirooz zibatar mikoni

va hamine ke kheyli dooset daram

ba to setareha cheghadr be zamin nazdikan

inghadri ke ehsas mikonam mitoonam bechinameshoon

ba to khorshid baraghtar va nooranitare

ba to parandeghan soorode asheghane mikhoonan

va bad ba komake sedaye derakhtan va moje daryaha moosighishoono minavaze

ba to asemoon abitare

ba to golha khoshbootaran

ba to ghoncheha sarii shokoofa mishan ta jeloye zibayiye to sar afkande nashan

negah kon bebin donya zibast faghat be khatere inke to too donya hasti

man toro bekhatere tamoome zibayihat dooset daram

vaghti ke dahan baz mikoni va sohbat mikoni adam ehsas mikone zibatarin melody zamoone darhale navakhte shodane

va man toro doost daram

va omidvaram ye roozi liyaghate ino dashte basham ta to fereshteye beheshti ro dar aghoosh begiram va ba boodane bato khoshbakhttarin marde zamoone basham

az zamoone khordsalim

ta in lahze ke ba to hastam

az faraze asemoonhaye bi enteha ta amightarin noghteye daryaha

hich mojoodi ro be zibayiye to nadidam va hichvaght intor khodamo ashegh va divoone ehsas nakardam azizam pas biya

biya va zendeghiye mano ba boodanet rangh bebakhsh

ghabl az oonike to be zendeghim biyay zendeghim chizi be gheyr az ye zendeghiye siyah va sefid nabood

ke tanha ranghesh ranghe ghoroobe khorshid bood vali az oon vaght ke to oomadi hame chiz avaz shode ba boodane to zendeghim rangh gerefte.

ba to boodan azad shodan az ghame donyast

ba to boodan zendeghiye ghobar gerefteye mano jala mide

baazi vaghtha ke ba to hastam khodamo be bachegi mizanam va to mesle ye madare mehraboon miyay va be man mohabat koni

ah ke cheghadr ba to boodan zibast

pas azizam biya hamontori ke be donyaye atrafet rangh jala va ghoroor dadi

be zendeghiye man rangh bebakhsh va mano shad kon

ghalbe mano nashkan!!!!!!!!!!!

mano ba inhame dard tanha nazar

mano biroon zire baroone sard tanha nazar

biya pishamo ba labkhande sehr angizet ashkhaye jari bar goonehayamo pak kon

man be aghooshet ehtiaj daram ta mano ba mehrabooni dar aghoosh bekeshi va ba garmaye badanet sardiye zendeghimo az beyn bebari

va baraye hamishe garma bakhshe zendeghim bashi

ghalbe mano nashkan

begoo ke doosam dari

va hichvaght mano tanha nemizari

ba moondanet payani bash bar shabhaye ghamnake man

ba moondanet jeloye ashkhaye hamishe ravan mano begir

shabhaye ziyadi ro dar naboodet geristam

oon shabha va dardha ro be man bar nagardoon

ghalbe mano nashkan azizam!!!!!!

hichvaght az man khodahafezi nakon

va shadi va noore omido be zendeghim baz gardoon

mano ba in ashkha va dardha tanha nazar

biya va ba boosehaye shirinethamasho az beyn bebar

hichvaght nemitoonam lahazate shirini ro ke ba ham dashtim faramoosh konam

lahazati ro ke khodamo khoshbakhttarin adame donya ehsas mikardam

va aghe to ba man nabashi hich angizeyi baraye shad boodan nakhaham dasht

ghalbe mano nashkan

be man begoo ke doosam dari

lahazate shirine zendeghimo az man nagir

azizam ghalbe mano nashkan

begoo ke doosam dari

bi to gomgashteyi bish nakhaham bood

bi to donya vasam tire va tar khahad bood

bi to tanhayi behtarin doostam khahad bood

bi to.....................................................................

ghalbe mano nashkan

dastane eshghe man !

az koja bayad shoroo konam?

dastani ro mikham taarif konam az inke , eshgh cheghadr mitoone ziba bashe!

dastani ro behet begham ke hezaran sale dighe zende khahad bood!

az mojezeyi begham ke eshgh ba khodesh miyare!

az koja bayad shoroo konam?

ba ye (hi) shoroo shod!

be zendeghiye pooch va faniye man maani bakhshid

midoonam dighe chenin eshghi jaye dighe va zamane dighe bevojood nakhahad oomad!

oon be zendeghiye man oomado zendeghi ro ziba kard!

oon ghalbe mano ehsas kard!

ejab avar bood,bavar nakardani bood

ba sedaye fereshte goonash ghalbamo male khodash kard!

be man royayi ro dad ke hichvaght nemitoonestam tasavoresho bokonam!

roohe mano taskhir kard ba eshghe ziyad !

bishtar az oonike arezoosho dashtam

va har ja ke miram dighe tanha nistam !

midoonam oon bamane!

man be ye fereshteye beheshti residam!

fereshteyi ke az behesht oomade ta payani bashe bar nakamihaye zendeghim nemidoonam cheghadr tool khahad keshid?

aya mitavan eshgho ba saat ya rooz andaze gereft?

faghat mitoonam inghadr begham ke vase had va andazeye eshgh nemitoonam meyari biyaram

faghat ino mitoonam begham ke har vaght ke cheshmamo baz mikonam be eshghesh ehtiaj daram!

va midoonam ke oon oonja khahad bood!

va ine dastane eshghe man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gerye zire baran

hargez nemizaram ke bebini !

chegoone ghalbe shekastam azaram mide!

man ghoroore khodamo daram va midoonam chegoone ghamhamo az to penhan konam!

hamangoone ke zire baran gerye mikonam ta ashkhayam ro nabini!

bayad sabr konam!

midoonam baad az in roozhaye barani roozhaye aftabi dar rahe

vali aghe ashkamo nabini chegoone khahi fahmid ke cheghadr dooset daram?

az koja mifahmi in ashkha faghat vase to rikhte mishe?

va darde ghalbamo az koja ehsas khahi kard?

bimnakam az anke shayad in ashkha ghalbe mehrabooneto narahat kone pas baz ham zire baran khaham gerist ta ashkamo nabini!

ghatarate baran az behesht miyad va nemate khadast vali hichvaght nemitoone darde dooriye toro kam kone

vaghti baham nistim arezoo mikonam toofan she ta hichkas ashkamo nabine!midoonam roozi khahad resid ke dighe nakhaahm gerist

labkhandi khaham zad va bato zire aftab ghadam khaham zad!

shayad fekr kardan be inke ye roozi be to miresam hemaghat bashe!

shayad ye roya bash!

vali in tanha chiziye ke mano zende negah midare!

va hichvaght gelaye nakhaham kard az oonchizi ke besaram khahad oomad!

va az sarneveshtam farar nakhaham kard!

hamantor ke zire baroon gerye mikonam!